/ 5:08 AM

Non-stop dailies

Right now, I’m exhausted. All I want to do is settle down somewhere and grab a nice cup of coffee.

Ah…yes…just what I need. A cup of freshly brewed cappuccino, a slice of carrot cake, an uptown, urban café that costs me too much money but also this quiet, empty space where no one can find me, no one knows who I am, and no one to interrupt my thoughts.

I just realized today, although it seems like any other normal day for me, involved a lot of moving around. Started the day by entering office, despite the rain, had the usual, which basically means nothing similar to the day before. I love my job. It’s fun and exciting and dynamic and I’m always doing something different every day.

And then hospital to visit the sis by lunch and spent some good time with that tough cookie. Traveled back eastward to the gym, and then headed to the library to get some ‘work’ done, and then to the airport to send the uncle off.

And I’m not kidding you; everyday’s routine is kinda like that for me. No surprise why I seldom have time to blog or even write an email to catch up with old friends and such. My group mates have called me SuperHuman…but some times I admit defeat to fatigue and back down and every thing just come tumbling down.

Too much on my plate to worry about now I wish there is some way to make the world go slower or time to slow down or give me more than 24 hours a day and more than 7 days a week. It just needs to. I just feel like I’m whizzing through life that I don’t get to savour really special significant moments or even learn about the significance of why the trivial ones even happen. I don’t know.

I’m just tired. Don’t mind me.

/ 5:17 PM

A trip of happiness

If happiness is a journey, I'm at the beginning of it.

At this very moment right now, I truly believe that happiness is a journey, an experience that you go through rather than a destination. Sure, we all want to reach ultimate happiness, whatever that means. But what I feel is most valuable is if we see it a process into something bigger in our lives.

I feel like I have been blessed with the greatest people in my life. Friends who are always there to provide me with the greatest support in whatever form, family who provide me with my basic needs...and I have all the right reasons to be happy about. And for that, I thank you for making such an impact impact in my life, and constantly giving me the motivation to go on no matter what happens.

The whole of last month was all about sweet treats and self-reclamation. It was all about getting in touch with my self all over again and things that I truly love. Hanna and Jam had been so kind to taking me out for desserts at good bargain (albeit I feel we had splurged a little here and there). But yea, makes me feel good about myself!

I love sweet treats and no one tells me I do not deserve any of these.





I'm thinking, we should make this our weekly rendezvous, me and food. Anyone's welcomed to join, of course, for as long as you enjoy simple pleasures in life as such.

xoxox
Syida

/ 10:43 AM

Solitary


The city skyline. The late afternoon grey sky. Clouds passing by. A sip of coffee. No one else, but me.

Exactly what I need after all these times of being bogged down by the cornucopia of work and the smothering grip of others.

Been having some real tough time as of late, in the sense that all I want to do is be on my own and do things at my own pace, and space, but circumstances seem to deter me from achieving this.

Being social has its good and bad. Pros and cons, just like every other thing. Being social makes me approachable and make others comfortable with me. Such that people find it easy to talk to me and share their thoughts and feelings with me. Sometimes to a point when it comes in excess where details and information are thrown my way that I never intended to seek nor digest that particular piece of detail. Right now, I am at a spot where I just want to isolate myself from all these drama, because some are not even mine to begin with, and just compartmentalise my thoughts, feelings and emotions and learn to filter out which are worth vocalising and which I would keep private.

Sometimes I just wish that I am like my other friends, like Farah, for example, who has such strong determination in her to keep things to herself that people respect her private and personal space. It's kind of known amongst our circle of friends that Farah is like that, that she's a solitary person and she values her own time and space. And people respect and acknowledge that about her. But the problem with being me is that I have always made myself 'out there', and I always seem 'available' in the eyes of others that I am constantly under the radar for others to seek. It has come to a point when this suffocates me and I want to untie whatever knot there is attached to me.

Maybe disappearing from the typical public spaces might enable me to regain my sense of independence once more. We'll see.

/ 5:14 PM

Que Sera Sera...And I am back for more.

So I recall the last update I had here. It's been months, and I've been on hiatus yet again. I am trying to get in the habit of blogging once more, because I realise I love writing, whether it makes sense or not, but I just haven't had the time to really get down to it. How can one lose the mojo to do something one loves, right? But let me tell you that losing one's drive is possible despite the amount of passion you have for one thing, but the trick is to make it a temporal phase and find your motivation back again to drive you forward.

Much has been happening over the past months of course; school has started again (this time for the final year! that's right baby) and then there's the Final Year Project which is killing me and giving me sleepless nights. And then there's dealing with work and school at the same time; I'm still working part time with Rice Communications and I still handling clients accounts. And then there's singlehood. Again.

It's been more than a month now since the last break-up and I decided to drop the bomb on him once more and let him go. And while it was a tough reality he had to grapple with, it was something I had to do, for the best of the both of us. It never was working in the first place, as a relationship, but we make two really good pair of friends. And at this very moment as I speak about this, we are now both perfectly comfortable with each other, and he has in fact moved on to someone new, while I am loving every second of my liberation.

I realise that I am a person who highly value my personal freedom and my own space and time. While I was with Amal, I was morphing into someone I am not, but more like someone he wanted me to be. We never did things I enjoyed mostly; like going out to explore new places together, nor find new things to eat, and just generally enjoy food. And it was just getting to stagnant. There was no dynamism in the relationship. And thus, I had to get out before I become stale.

True story.

And now...I'm taking my baby steps back into happiness. Truth is, with times spent with my truly precious girls, Syaf, Farah, Jam, and Hanna, mostly, I feel like a happier person altogether. Happiness is a journey, and I'm at the start of it. =)

Love y'all. <3

/ 8:31 AM

July. You lie, You die.

Greets mate!

And that was yet another hiatus from this space. So much for updating on-the-go about my Krabi & Koh Phi Phi trip. I lied, I admit. But you might get a sense of how exciting and adrenaline-punching the trip was then, yea, considering how I could not squeeze some time to update this social media space right here.

I'll give a quick summary of it for now and do a more detailed update later when I actually bother (that will be like...yea...whenever)

Two words: Fucking awesome.Flew with Tiger Air as it was cheap and all. Safe flight compared to my previous adventures on Lion Air towards Indonesia way. hah.

I actually scuba dived for the first time in my life and LOVED it for the life of me and Nemo the clownfish. Come to think of it, it was a trip of many firsts...first scuba dive, first rock climbing...

first almost-cliff-jump-but-did-not-because-I-could-not-climb-up-in-the-first-place, yea. And oh yes, I must boast that it was the first time I...





saw a sunset out in the open sea on a boat.

Beautiful, that one.

Imagine a serenity like no other, chilling by the Maya Bay on the south island, busking in the warmth of summer sunshine, soft sands under you as you look far out into the horizon.

There is something about the place that makes me hooked and wanting more of it. I would say that spending 4 days there wasn't enough, and I would definitely go back for more, one day.

Ah...bliss I tell you.

3 weeks after this and I am still hungover from the holiday and craving for more adventures.

Talks have been made about making my way to Australia some time, either in October or January. But this is all very tentative right now so I am not banking any solid confirmation on these just yet. Thinking of hitting Sydney but it all depends very much on how my schedule for the next 6 months looks like right now.

All I am dreaming for right now is the Sydney harbour at sunset with the emerald sky up ahead, walking downtown with a companion and talking about the most random of subject, yet so eloquently and animatedly, with thought-provoking notions about the world and people. Will this ever be?

You tell me.

July, July, don't you cry.

xoxo
Syida

/ 3:12 PM

Krabi & Phi Phi awaiting, kids


For the life of me, I really can't wait for my upcoming trip. All these planning has suddenly made me really excited for it.

And so here we are at June 17th, finally, a day away from the completion of my Professional Internship. Come to think of it, it's kinda surreal now that we are even here. I remember counting the days to this day with my partner-in-crime, Yue Ting, looking forward to our summer plans each and completing this internship.

I must say though, that it is definitely a bittersweet feeling. On one side, my heart is heavy to leave the company, since I admit I learnt a lot during my stint over the 24 weeks. Working for a media company has definitely been fun, and handling various promotional projects one after another was very very interesting. However, I am also looking forward to the next part of my summer plan and that is joining a PR company and hoping to service accounts just to see if I would like it. (and plus, they are paying me slightly more over there. no complains)

But before we even get there, we've got a mission, friends.

And this time, we are discovering a new destination: Krabi & Koh Phi Phi, Thailand.

Plans have been made for the 5-day, 4-night adventure with my buddy and I am sureeeeee bloody excited for it. Even saying "bloody" doesn't quite make the cut. I just wanna hop on that flight already and get out of here like NOW.

Nonetheless, we'll be flying on Tiger Air this time, so not to worry, hopefully no more aeroplane-get-strike-by-lightning antics anymore, huh?

And our accomodations for these two places are pretty neat as well.

For Krabi, we'll be heading over to Ao Nang and staying at Alis Hotel.

As for Phi Phi, we'll be staying at Phitharom PP Resort.

Got the details for pick up all ironed out and ferry services etc. Gosh I hope it's gonna be smashing.

Watch this space for zee updates y'all!

xx
Syida

/ 7:33 AM

Anticipation

Greetings, Earthlings!

Not that anyone would probably read this space as to watch this space, but someone would if I were to notify you, yea?

Given the absence from even this space for months and months, anyone would have figured out that I am missing from all those wayfarer's adventures for some time now.

Internship's been much of an intern-shit. Lotsa work, been held busy as always.

Until I came to the point when I am stuck sitting at home, hit by a venerable (haha!) chickenpox disease. Very uncalled for, I'm quite disappointed I must say. Just as I thought I could stay a pox virgin all my life.

However, good thinking it happens like now and not in 3 weeks time...because...yours truly here is going for another adventure of a lifetime, this time, destination: Krabi & Phi Phi Island, Thailand.

It's gonna be legen...wait for it...DARY!

Also, I can't wait for my pox to be gone and be fully recovered because I am missing out on all the fun at work. And social life.

Have I mentioned I have a boyfriend now too? Haha not an important fact (yea right Syida) but yes he's quite a sweetheart minus the fact he makes me quite mad and frustrated at times for his cluelessness. Nonetheless I think it's a relationship I can write a book about (chic lit, preferably) if I can afford the time. Which I don't. Girl goes to gym. Girl meets boy. Boy falls for girl (please note how I arrange the sequence in such a way he falls for me first instead of me for him; such ego I have). Boy woos girl. Girl falls for boy. Boy takes care of girl one night. And then sparks fly and cupids shoot arrows and tadaaaa....romance blossoms. Something like that. Premise for a cliched book, eh? Hurhur.

And whilst I am trying to conquer the world from my bed (chickenpox-stricken, mind you, at 22), I also can't wait for Monday because it is his birthday and I have prepared something so sweet it's diabetic.

Watch this space. Coming to you in HD.

Love love and I can't possibly give you more love,
Syida

/ 5:08 AM

Non-stop dailies

Right now, I’m exhausted. All I want to do is settle down somewhere and grab a nice cup of coffee.

Ah…yes…just what I need. A cup of freshly brewed cappuccino, a slice of carrot cake, an uptown, urban café that costs me too much money but also this quiet, empty space where no one can find me, no one knows who I am, and no one to interrupt my thoughts.

I just realized today, although it seems like any other normal day for me, involved a lot of moving around. Started the day by entering office, despite the rain, had the usual, which basically means nothing similar to the day before. I love my job. It’s fun and exciting and dynamic and I’m always doing something different every day.

And then hospital to visit the sis by lunch and spent some good time with that tough cookie. Traveled back eastward to the gym, and then headed to the library to get some ‘work’ done, and then to the airport to send the uncle off.

And I’m not kidding you; everyday’s routine is kinda like that for me. No surprise why I seldom have time to blog or even write an email to catch up with old friends and such. My group mates have called me SuperHuman…but some times I admit defeat to fatigue and back down and every thing just come tumbling down.

Too much on my plate to worry about now I wish there is some way to make the world go slower or time to slow down or give me more than 24 hours a day and more than 7 days a week. It just needs to. I just feel like I’m whizzing through life that I don’t get to savour really special significant moments or even learn about the significance of why the trivial ones even happen. I don’t know.

I’m just tired. Don’t mind me.

/ 5:17 PM

A trip of happiness

If happiness is a journey, I'm at the beginning of it.

At this very moment right now, I truly believe that happiness is a journey, an experience that you go through rather than a destination. Sure, we all want to reach ultimate happiness, whatever that means. But what I feel is most valuable is if we see it a process into something bigger in our lives.

I feel like I have been blessed with the greatest people in my life. Friends who are always there to provide me with the greatest support in whatever form, family who provide me with my basic needs...and I have all the right reasons to be happy about. And for that, I thank you for making such an impact impact in my life, and constantly giving me the motivation to go on no matter what happens.

The whole of last month was all about sweet treats and self-reclamation. It was all about getting in touch with my self all over again and things that I truly love. Hanna and Jam had been so kind to taking me out for desserts at good bargain (albeit I feel we had splurged a little here and there). But yea, makes me feel good about myself!

I love sweet treats and no one tells me I do not deserve any of these.





I'm thinking, we should make this our weekly rendezvous, me and food. Anyone's welcomed to join, of course, for as long as you enjoy simple pleasures in life as such.

xoxox
Syida

/ 10:43 AM

Solitary


The city skyline. The late afternoon grey sky. Clouds passing by. A sip of coffee. No one else, but me.

Exactly what I need after all these times of being bogged down by the cornucopia of work and the smothering grip of others.

Been having some real tough time as of late, in the sense that all I want to do is be on my own and do things at my own pace, and space, but circumstances seem to deter me from achieving this.

Being social has its good and bad. Pros and cons, just like every other thing. Being social makes me approachable and make others comfortable with me. Such that people find it easy to talk to me and share their thoughts and feelings with me. Sometimes to a point when it comes in excess where details and information are thrown my way that I never intended to seek nor digest that particular piece of detail. Right now, I am at a spot where I just want to isolate myself from all these drama, because some are not even mine to begin with, and just compartmentalise my thoughts, feelings and emotions and learn to filter out which are worth vocalising and which I would keep private.

Sometimes I just wish that I am like my other friends, like Farah, for example, who has such strong determination in her to keep things to herself that people respect her private and personal space. It's kind of known amongst our circle of friends that Farah is like that, that she's a solitary person and she values her own time and space. And people respect and acknowledge that about her. But the problem with being me is that I have always made myself 'out there', and I always seem 'available' in the eyes of others that I am constantly under the radar for others to seek. It has come to a point when this suffocates me and I want to untie whatever knot there is attached to me.

Maybe disappearing from the typical public spaces might enable me to regain my sense of independence once more. We'll see.

/ 5:14 PM

Que Sera Sera...And I am back for more.

So I recall the last update I had here. It's been months, and I've been on hiatus yet again. I am trying to get in the habit of blogging once more, because I realise I love writing, whether it makes sense or not, but I just haven't had the time to really get down to it. How can one lose the mojo to do something one loves, right? But let me tell you that losing one's drive is possible despite the amount of passion you have for one thing, but the trick is to make it a temporal phase and find your motivation back again to drive you forward.

Much has been happening over the past months of course; school has started again (this time for the final year! that's right baby) and then there's the Final Year Project which is killing me and giving me sleepless nights. And then there's dealing with work and school at the same time; I'm still working part time with Rice Communications and I still handling clients accounts. And then there's singlehood. Again.

It's been more than a month now since the last break-up and I decided to drop the bomb on him once more and let him go. And while it was a tough reality he had to grapple with, it was something I had to do, for the best of the both of us. It never was working in the first place, as a relationship, but we make two really good pair of friends. And at this very moment as I speak about this, we are now both perfectly comfortable with each other, and he has in fact moved on to someone new, while I am loving every second of my liberation.

I realise that I am a person who highly value my personal freedom and my own space and time. While I was with Amal, I was morphing into someone I am not, but more like someone he wanted me to be. We never did things I enjoyed mostly; like going out to explore new places together, nor find new things to eat, and just generally enjoy food. And it was just getting to stagnant. There was no dynamism in the relationship. And thus, I had to get out before I become stale.

True story.

And now...I'm taking my baby steps back into happiness. Truth is, with times spent with my truly precious girls, Syaf, Farah, Jam, and Hanna, mostly, I feel like a happier person altogether. Happiness is a journey, and I'm at the start of it. =)

Love y'all. <3

/ 8:31 AM

July. You lie, You die.

Greets mate!

And that was yet another hiatus from this space. So much for updating on-the-go about my Krabi & Koh Phi Phi trip. I lied, I admit. But you might get a sense of how exciting and adrenaline-punching the trip was then, yea, considering how I could not squeeze some time to update this social media space right here.

I'll give a quick summary of it for now and do a more detailed update later when I actually bother (that will be like...yea...whenever)

Two words: Fucking awesome.Flew with Tiger Air as it was cheap and all. Safe flight compared to my previous adventures on Lion Air towards Indonesia way. hah.

I actually scuba dived for the first time in my life and LOVED it for the life of me and Nemo the clownfish. Come to think of it, it was a trip of many firsts...first scuba dive, first rock climbing...

first almost-cliff-jump-but-did-not-because-I-could-not-climb-up-in-the-first-place, yea. And oh yes, I must boast that it was the first time I...





saw a sunset out in the open sea on a boat.

Beautiful, that one.

Imagine a serenity like no other, chilling by the Maya Bay on the south island, busking in the warmth of summer sunshine, soft sands under you as you look far out into the horizon.

There is something about the place that makes me hooked and wanting more of it. I would say that spending 4 days there wasn't enough, and I would definitely go back for more, one day.

Ah...bliss I tell you.

3 weeks after this and I am still hungover from the holiday and craving for more adventures.

Talks have been made about making my way to Australia some time, either in October or January. But this is all very tentative right now so I am not banking any solid confirmation on these just yet. Thinking of hitting Sydney but it all depends very much on how my schedule for the next 6 months looks like right now.

All I am dreaming for right now is the Sydney harbour at sunset with the emerald sky up ahead, walking downtown with a companion and talking about the most random of subject, yet so eloquently and animatedly, with thought-provoking notions about the world and people. Will this ever be?

You tell me.

July, July, don't you cry.

xoxo
Syida

/ 3:12 PM

Krabi & Phi Phi awaiting, kids


For the life of me, I really can't wait for my upcoming trip. All these planning has suddenly made me really excited for it.

And so here we are at June 17th, finally, a day away from the completion of my Professional Internship. Come to think of it, it's kinda surreal now that we are even here. I remember counting the days to this day with my partner-in-crime, Yue Ting, looking forward to our summer plans each and completing this internship.

I must say though, that it is definitely a bittersweet feeling. On one side, my heart is heavy to leave the company, since I admit I learnt a lot during my stint over the 24 weeks. Working for a media company has definitely been fun, and handling various promotional projects one after another was very very interesting. However, I am also looking forward to the next part of my summer plan and that is joining a PR company and hoping to service accounts just to see if I would like it. (and plus, they are paying me slightly more over there. no complains)

But before we even get there, we've got a mission, friends.

And this time, we are discovering a new destination: Krabi & Koh Phi Phi, Thailand.

Plans have been made for the 5-day, 4-night adventure with my buddy and I am sureeeeee bloody excited for it. Even saying "bloody" doesn't quite make the cut. I just wanna hop on that flight already and get out of here like NOW.

Nonetheless, we'll be flying on Tiger Air this time, so not to worry, hopefully no more aeroplane-get-strike-by-lightning antics anymore, huh?

And our accomodations for these two places are pretty neat as well.

For Krabi, we'll be heading over to Ao Nang and staying at Alis Hotel.

As for Phi Phi, we'll be staying at Phitharom PP Resort.

Got the details for pick up all ironed out and ferry services etc. Gosh I hope it's gonna be smashing.

Watch this space for zee updates y'all!

xx
Syida

/ 7:33 AM

Anticipation

Greetings, Earthlings!

Not that anyone would probably read this space as to watch this space, but someone would if I were to notify you, yea?

Given the absence from even this space for months and months, anyone would have figured out that I am missing from all those wayfarer's adventures for some time now.

Internship's been much of an intern-shit. Lotsa work, been held busy as always.

Until I came to the point when I am stuck sitting at home, hit by a venerable (haha!) chickenpox disease. Very uncalled for, I'm quite disappointed I must say. Just as I thought I could stay a pox virgin all my life.

However, good thinking it happens like now and not in 3 weeks time...because...yours truly here is going for another adventure of a lifetime, this time, destination: Krabi & Phi Phi Island, Thailand.

It's gonna be legen...wait for it...DARY!

Also, I can't wait for my pox to be gone and be fully recovered because I am missing out on all the fun at work. And social life.

Have I mentioned I have a boyfriend now too? Haha not an important fact (yea right Syida) but yes he's quite a sweetheart minus the fact he makes me quite mad and frustrated at times for his cluelessness. Nonetheless I think it's a relationship I can write a book about (chic lit, preferably) if I can afford the time. Which I don't. Girl goes to gym. Girl meets boy. Boy falls for girl (please note how I arrange the sequence in such a way he falls for me first instead of me for him; such ego I have). Boy woos girl. Girl falls for boy. Boy takes care of girl one night. And then sparks fly and cupids shoot arrows and tadaaaa....romance blossoms. Something like that. Premise for a cliched book, eh? Hurhur.

And whilst I am trying to conquer the world from my bed (chickenpox-stricken, mind you, at 22), I also can't wait for Monday because it is his birthday and I have prepared something so sweet it's diabetic.

Watch this space. Coming to you in HD.

Love love and I can't possibly give you more love,
Syida